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Saturday, January 19, 2008/ 10:45 PM i`ll stop the world and melt with you  hello love. I was at the hospital the whole of yesterday. Met baby after sch and waited under his block for him to get changed and we went to simei to eat. After that he sent me all the way to the hospital sey. I trully appreciate. I had difficulty sleeping yesterday so i replied to baby`s letter and i woke up with the worst headache ever. I thought i was going to fall sick all over again. But Alhamdullilah i`m okay.Mak Mek is home today. The doctor said she could come home and rest. But she has to be back there on Monday for he scope. Sigh. My cousin from Malacca who is a doctor saw her scans and all. And it definitely is cancer. But we are just not sure what kind it is. And i heard my aunts talking and they were telling each other to expect the worst. Sigh. But still i want to pray for the best. I hope things will get better. I hope she will get better. Anyway i miss ahmad terribly. I`m sorry i cancelled our cycling date. And the Friday thing. I wish i was there. But i know you understand. Thanks sey. Thank you for giving me confidence and comfort. Yesterday i was listening to my aunts and uncles talk about Haji. And i felt so warm inside. And then i think about it and i want for us to go together. I know i have big big dreams. But i really want this. I want my kids to not be like me. I don`t want them to lose faith just like i did. But i`m lucky that i had someone who came and reminded me of what HE had to give, a place of comfort and a place to hear what i really thought and know how i really was feeling inside. It is a good feeling to finally pray you know. I felt so calm yesterday and i could think clearly. And somehow it gave me strength? so yeah. I`m proud to be a Muslim=D (sounds weird coming from me eh?)Btw, thank you Ahmad Syafie, Sharifah Nabila & Juffrino Latiff for giving me the strength and Yan-ieee thanks for your concern. Happy belated birthday bitch. HAHA. Dah 17 sey, so fast. I still have a long long way to gooooooooo. Anyway i bought two gorgeous vintage bags today and i am so happy sey. I`m going shopping with huds tomorrow. I am hoping of getting t-shirts, a vest, grey jeans and new flats. So will be borrowing money from mummy dearest and when i go work for Pak Li i will pay her back. haha. Anyway the vintage bags were bought with a promise. A promise for me to wash the toilets on of these days. haha. Yay to housework. And so i will go to sleep soon. God Ahmad Syafie, imysm! I can`t wait to see you again so that you can put yours arms around me and make me feel safe again. Baby, I'm yours and I'll be yours until the stars fall from the sky. Yours until the rivers all run dry. In other words, until I die. Baby, I'm yours and I'll be yours until the sun no longer shines. Yours until the poets run out of rhyme. In other words, until the end of time. I'm gonna stay right here by your side, do my best to keep you satisfied. Nothing in the world can drive me away cause every day, you'll hear me say, Baby, I'm yours and I'll be yours until two and two is three. Yours until the mountains crumble to the sea. In other words, until eternity. |
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