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Sunday, February 17, 2008/ 11:45 PM if i was a life-saver Sometimes i wonder whether i have an effect on people`s lives. I wonder if i do give a helping hand and am able to comfort the people in my life. Somehow i don`t think i`m so good at it cause i can`t make things better cause i am not in their shoes. And i`m afraid that things that i say will make things worst. I wonder if i do that. Sigh. This paragraph is so random cause i was just thinking about it when i was in the bus home from Pak Eh`s house. Sigh. Anyway i had a long day. was at Pak Eh`s house since 3.30 plus till 11 for the kenduri and doa selamat for Kak Nabilah who will be going to Australia on Tuesday to study for about 2 years. I think the experience will be a great one. My mum did talk to me about studying overseas and after my a levels OR diploma then we`ll decide. I know going to MI is a really good path, however i do feel a little sad because i did want to get into poly. However i know it will do my future good. Haha. I`m talking as though i already got my posting. I`m not going to regret my decision. However i think that what happens now will determine my future. And as cliche as i am, i do want a stable life. I want to work for 3/4 of my life. I want a house and a family, just like mine. I`m a lucky girl. To have such wonderful family,lover and friends. I didn`t use to be like this. I didn`t use to have such great friends. But i have been blessed and i wish everyone else was as happy as me. Sigh. Anyway ahmad syafie, you are very random. Haha. I love your random calls. Makes me all happy and jittery. I bet you`re fast asleep now. Hmm i miss you. I hope i get to see your pretty face and listen to your voice tomorrow. I crave for you and netball. I think the combination of you both is great. Cause when i get all sore and tired you`ll cheer me up and somehow i feel better. I miss you more then you`ll ever know. How come i feel so sad? I`m a weird person. I think its the guilt. Because everyone else aren`t having best days but i am. Oh damn. I WANT TO WATCH GREY`S ANATOMY UHH PLS? |
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