hello!! Aren`t i such a happy happy happy person? haha. Netball training on friday with germs, jia yin and the twins were awesome!!!! We joined the b div. I swear germs makes me laugh so hard. Dad`s little treasures (things that he brings home from work) just make me feel oh so dancing on the clouds high. Syaf`s laughter and teases just make me feel like flying. Its been so long since i`v seen the shine in your huge arab eyes whenever you smile. As cliche as it sounds your eyes really does that. Blowing bubbles with my adik is the most hilarious thing. He karate kicks them and tries eating the bubbles. Bubbles make me happy. Reminds us all of childhood. My mum kept smiling when she saw the bubbles. Cup noodles on fridays are just bliss. I do not remember how long it has been since we were this happy. And i love this. I love this. I hope it will last. I don`t want it to go away. I don`t want to fight anymore. I love making you happy.

Sigh. I feel a little guilty about being so bloody happy. Its unfair. B`cause i cannot make others happy with me. I wish i could make Huds and Sharifah be as happy as i am. I wish i had the power to make everything better.

Huds, please do cheer up. They don`t deserve such a great friend like you sey. I am so damn lucky to have someone like you on my side. You`re honest and true. And you`re a great listener with awesome opinions. They have no idea what they are missing! You deserve friends that will stick with you through it all. You deserve friends you will always be there for you no matter what the situation. And you deserve friends who will never take advantage of you. And when they realise what they have lost it will be you laughing your ass off infront of them because you know you are better of without them and they`ll regret that they didn`t hold on or apologise for all the things they did. And if you were rich and you would buy me all the daises in the world, i`d be the happiest cousin with a cikopek face who will haunt you in your dreams because i am here for you not for credit but because i want too and because i know you deserve better then all this. So please do cheer up. Maybe after the kenduri you will cheer up. As i said, i promise to try to be as goofy as i can be =D

And Sharifah Nabila, letting go isn`t easy. Its the hardest thing anyone could do. I know it isn`t easy. And i shall not say "Sharifah, its finally time to let go" because i know its not the easiest thing to do. However i will tell you to look at this in a positive way. It will take a long time for your heart to heal. But i will be there the whole way. No matter what. Because i know that you will have many bad days to come and i know that you will not be the old cheerful you for awhile. But i will say that letting go isn`t possible. It hurts but isn`t life just cruel that way? You have loved and lost. But you have loved sharifah. And its hard and painful but remember all the good times. And don`t regret anything that you did or say because you did it all out of instinct. All the things you meant and you didn`t mean, don`t regret them because you can`t take them back. However we can learn can`t we? I have no hak to tell you that life`s a bed of roses, that eventually you will be okay. I have had my share of heart break too. And i have said so many things that i didn`t mean. As sorry as i am, i cannot take them back either. But we just have to pick ourselves up. With a little help of course. I am definitely here for you and i know so will syaf, haziq and everyone else. If anyone bullies you about it tell me, then i`ll kick their sorry asses for you. And because you deserve to be happy. And someday things will be okay. And we just have to wait and pray for that day to come when you can finally feel trully happy like me now okay? So stay strong and don`t let anyone bring you down. Their just out to get you. But it will never work on our lovely Jean Grey cause you`re too damn strong okay. And you do deserve the world sey. Bad things always happen to people who don`t really deserve it sey. Its ironic but its life. So take each day with enthusiam and faith that one day you will be okay. And i love you alright girlfriend! Haha (okay that felt a little bitchy sey!)

I feel like a GURU suddenly. hahaha. But i mean every word sey. I hope i was able to cheer both of you up. Anyway i`m waiting for ahmad syafie to text me. Apparently he SHOULD be awake to watch our arsenal vs manu. Haha. Man u, down the drain you go! Haha.

Eh Ahmad, i miss you already. And i love you for everything.

I trully love you with my whole heart.

And i will protect you and i will love you for years to come.

We will get through all the bullshit thrown to us.

And somehow i know that we will be okay together.

I love you buttcheeks =D

Thanks for today and everyday, you always make my day.

I pray that everyone in the world will get a lover as great as mine.

( hahaha farah so EMOTIONAL LA SEY. stop it ehh!!!)

okay bye! =D