I just want to say thank you for everything. I know this is equally hard for you but damn you`re so strong. Sigh. Thank you so much for everything. This past years have been the best for me but you`re right. You always are. You`ve made your presence extremely wonderful and i shall cherish every happy thing that we went through. Thanks for the walks. Thanks for the laughs. Thanks for making me feel special. Thank you for being there. Thank you for holding my hand under the study table. Thank you for sharing inside jokes with me. Thank you for all the times you sacrificed your time for me. Thank you for making me the happiest person alive. I pray and hope for your happiness. I wish i was more like you wanted me to be. I wish things didn`t end up this way. I hope you`ll remember me the way i remember you.

Did i tell you that i`m so glad that you are here for me? Thank you for trying mila. You give me strength la. And thanks to zahier too for calling and making sure i`m okay eventhough he doesn`t know anything about it. My arms are aching like hell because of pull-ups. I swear my arms feel like just falling off my body. So i was talking to mila about being super skinny but then kan she said no good la. But i have the sudden urge to lose tonnes of weight. I want to be real skinny like last time. Haha. Oh well dream on la deeeeeeeeey.

I wish i could freaking donate all my blood to someone and maybe save another`s life. Wouldn`t that be nice? Maybe if i saved someone then maybe someone would come and save me? But seriously i wish this was easier. But then again i fucking want to be a super hero and i know that will never come true. So go figure. I should start waking up from my dream and stop spitting out vulgarities!

save me from myself.